A Fractal Ah Ha!

So - I was on my rebounder, 

happily focused 

up and down, 

quiet in an awareness of the spaces in between 

the pauses at the top and at the bottom

the moments when it all stops

the weight

the energy it takes to get it moving again

the energy it creates to keep it all moving

constantly changing and maintaining all at once simultaneously.

I reached out to answer the ringing phone.

A friend began sharing 

a conversation she had that morning 

with her running partner who manages her own private fund

talking about the effects on the market of the recent tsunami in Japan.

Partially attentive, 

not exactly sure what I was hearing, 

I kept listening, 

knowing I could ask, 

or follow along.

"Everything got very quiet for awhile, 

almost stopped.

then there was this surge

then things began to level out

then they began again.”

Yes, I thought.

That is just how tsunamis are.

There is this pause in the ocean's breathe,

for the gathering. 

Then the surge,

the leveling

the return.

Aside from my breathing,

the movement she described was also 

my own fractal ah ha

punctuated by the realization that she was talking about the 

financial tsunami 

the one that resulted from the up and down movement of the platelets.

I was not surprised.

Just refreshed

in that remembrance of connectivity.

Generating our own movements,

thinking they are separate from

our own life breath

in and out of the flow of all that is doing the same around and through us

supporting it, mirroring it,

reflecting different parts,

different dances of the same music

in and out

up and down

building

gathering

surging

leveling

returning

My Fractal Ah Ha

Was hugging me, holding that precious remembrance

The gratitude

The smile

The joy of being so great a part of so much so much greater.

What if?

A Game of Imagination or Reality

You Choose!

JUMP!

What if success turns out to be not distant, to be not a journey?

What if it is only ever just one repeating moment in time, one heartbeat again and again?

What if, even though it has the capacity to be different each time, new, fresh, creative, its inherent nature is dependably endless when you are one with it at once and then again?

What if it is Easy, Effortless, and Instant?

What if all you do is Stop! Look! Listen to what is already always inside again and again?

What if it is to learn to Acknowledge, to Accept, to Allow, to Connect?

I'M SCARED YOU SAY!

Imagine "You" standing at a Fork in The Road of this continual moment of your life!

What if, at this Fork, there is One Direction reading: “Going Back Is No Longer An Option!!”

A Second Direction reads: “A Guaranteed Interesting, Complex, Never-Ending Loop.”

A third sign, The Middle Road, reads: “A Bright, Sunny, Effortless Journey!”

JUMP!!

I’M TOO SCARED!! YOU SAY

And what if, looking from a distance at This Fork, you see that you have been here again? It is familiar to you, these directions. But now, from a different perspective, you see "You" never alone. And now, also, you see a kind of a Seer, a Guide, a Voice, a Silent Presence, an Always Knowing with you. In this imagining, the Seer has an essential though easy part to play: The Seer stands present at The Fork, blocking attempts at Going Back and for One Direction shows the hooking complications, the complexities, the difficulties, all those ever-so-tempting challenges. The Seer, knowing we are used to and think we like this Intrigue, this Challenge, this Drama, stands at The Fork allowing returns from One or the Second Direction again, encouraging them. The Seer at The Fork ever holds Hope! As none would return from The Middle Road, there comes an implicitly positive association, a Trust with The Seer returning again a repeated new choice, a new possibility, a new beginning, a new hope again.

JUMP!

 I'M WAY TOO SCARED!! YOU SAY

SO -
YOU ARE PUSHED!

So, what if, starting now, "You" choose to Stop! To Look! To Listen?

What if Now, "You" allow only The Middle Road?

What if that level of effortless connection with Bright and Easy becomes your new familiarity to cultivate? No more Drama. No more Intrigue. No more Complex Resistance trying to define who you thought you should be. No more costumes. No more artificial intelligence.
Just You Here Now More Than Enough.

Bright and Easy Now.

What if it really is what is already always in you all along?

What if it is just Acknowledging now, Accepting, Allowing now, Connecting now?

One strong sound heartbeat repeatedly inviting new hope again.

What if you choose just once more that Middle Road, that Hope that’s ever held?

Imagination or Reality?
What if You Choose!

AND YOU FLY!!!

Coming Home to Whole!

My son-in-law walked the kids to the bus this morning and I happened to be standing at the sliding door watching them leave, waving good bye. It was early morning. By the time he returned, the light had changed and I happened to catch a rare view of the Grand in early morning light.

It is Fall in the Tetons now, though a bit white, it resembles winter already. The pumpkins are out, promising treats for the little ones, ghosts hanging in doorways for tricks, goblins excited about foraging. The sunkissed Aspens have turned beyond gold, the sky hazy, clouds forbearing a return to the long winter's night here in this ever Grand Valley.

My life is so full! I have wanted to blog too long wondering what to write, picking a subject, a focus, something of value to share. I realized, having taken the challenge to just begin, that enough has been segmented, compartmentalized, separated out from what is naturally whole. A nutritionist friend of mine, when asked whether to drink low fat or no fat simply said, "Go Whole!" I like that. "Whole", it turns out is the way it was made, not by man or mind but by nature. "Whole" my friend went on to say, "has all the information in it that your body needs to sort it all out!"  "Whole" is where we start and "Whole" is where we want to get back to.

I got off a webinar at Health Coaching University this morning having heard that one of my classmates has a seriously broken arm and I wrote to her about the Bach Flower "Rescue Remedy", about "Elm" and about "Olive" and how I take them together because when I am shocked by something (Rescue Remedy), I get overwhelmed (Elm) and when I feel overwhelmed, I get exhausted (Olive) and each of these "Remedies" has information about that particular piece of the "Whole", information to help me keep my balance when it seems something has thrown it off.

I also shared a time before I had major abdominal surgery when my NLP coach told me that the body does not know the difference between what is real and what is imagined and that if I walked it through rehersal after rehersal of the surgery, detail by detail, by the time I got there, it would have been through it so many times, it would experience it as a walk in the park. I did and it worked for me.

Information is right here now waiting to be asked. It has always been right here now. We "think" it out of sight, out of mind, out of heart. That does not mean it has gone anywhere. Held in the Matrix, we only need to ask, we only need to allow, we only need to welcome it into the fullness of our being - conscious or unconscious, known or unknown, familiar or unfamiliar.

An airline pilot told me once that when you fly from point A to point Z, you are never flying in a straight line. You veer to the right, correct your path, come back to center, veer to the left, correct again. So, this Blog I have now begun is about getting back to where I started and knowing the place for the first time over and over and over. It is about re-setting a critical balance lost in segments of this and not that. It is about Coming Home to Whole even though whole for me includes a lot of "different" avenues, seemingly separate, seemingly impossible, seemingly unbearable.

As I journey with you this Coming Home to Whole, I hope some of what I share will help you find your way back to that balance that includes everything in your life past, present and future, everything known and unknown; I hope it will support you in maintaining that balance no matter how precarious; and I hope it will assist in staying the course, aligning again and again when change happens, which it will, whether you like it or not.

Here's to treats for all the parts of us that are goblins at heart, knocking on doors of neighbors and friends, sharing some joy and savoring the parts that, disguised or undisguised want, more than anything, to return to Coming Home to Whole!